Weighty Issues

Ok, so to know me is to love me right? And to love me is to embrace all that i am, good and bad right? Cool.
Ok, so basically, i have weight issues. Surprised? Probably not. I'm sure I'm right up there with the other 97% of women who have body image issues (nevermind the other 3% who are still in denial). So i have probably spent the better half of my adult weight obsessing about my weight. High or low. Skinny or fat. Thick or thin. I just cannot escape this morbid fascination. Now, it used to be cute cos even though i obsessed, i was a pretty decent sz 8ish, not bad in real people world right? However, with the advent of not one but two little rugrats, i have slowly emerged from the "Oh, please you are not fat!" realm, into the "Oh please, you look great for having had two kids" realm. And i haaaaate that realm, i really, really, really-face all srunched up-flat out on my tummy-fists balled up-pounding the floor-legs kicking in an all out tantrum-hate it kind of way! Whew...deep breaths.

Anyyywayyy...i have resolved to finally get up off my fat arse and actually DO something about it. As opposed to exercising like a fiend for a week straight and living off of carrot sticks and air and then weighing myself and finding out that i gained a pound and giving up and scarfing down a box of Entenmans followed by a half (ok, whole) pint of Ben & Jerry's and then hating myself and starting the whole crazy viscious cycle all over again...i have discovered Nutrisystem. i don't know if it'll work or not, i don't know if i'll even be able to stand the food, and i don't know if i'll be back on a month from now curled up in the fetal position blubbereing next to my box of Entenmans but dammit, it's worth a shot. I'm really psyched about the plan and am gonna post some before and after pictures and chronicle my weight loss (think positive) here along with the mess of everything else that is my life. Stay tuned...